Survivor Songs began as a project to write out the healing God has worked (and is working) in my life. Initially I envisioned a series that was theme-specific to sexual abuse, but the project grew to encompass many other facets of the Spirit’s ministry to Survivors of all kinds.
In the book of Nehemiah the priests command the people:
“Stand up! And bless the Lord your God from everlasting to everlasting.”
And later, in their prayer of praise and blessing to God, the people cry:
“You in your great mercies did not forsake them in the wilderness. The pillar of cloud to lead them in the wayside not depart from them by day, nor the pillar of fire by night to light for them the way by which they should go. You gave your good Spirit to instruct them and did not withhold your manna from their mouth and gave them water for their thirst…
“Now therefore, our God, the great, the mighty, and the awesome God, who keeps covenant and steadfast love, let not all the hardship seem little to you that has come upon us…”
Survivor Songs is a collective “standing up,” a declaration of the faithfulness of God, and a declaration of HOPE – he didn’t leave the people who came before us. He didn’t leave us; he won’t. And the things in our lives that are or have been broken do not seem little to him.
The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)
Below you will find a list of posts, many specific to abuse survivorship, but all universal in their testimony to this God who ‘goes there’ with us, and their invitation to ‘go there’ with him.
Survivor Songs Series:
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
- Poor In Spirit
- What Do You Mourn?
- Just With Me – artist guest post by Ramone Romero
- Ugliest Crier In The World – guest post by Katie of Prime Periwinkle
- Formulas Will Never Heal Your Soul – why I can’t say “all you need is Jesus” (even though it’s true)
- What ‘Blessed’ Really Means
- Mourning Requires Vulnerability
- Vulnerability In Real Time – a post of links
- Earthed In Jesus
- Creator Hears – artist guest post by Ramone Romero
- Joy Forged Through Mourning – the silver lining of one woman’s anxiety disorder (guest post by Heather Lee)
- Oh God, You Have Betrayed Us – another look at vulnerability
- The Lie That Fell Like A Curse – a story about comfort, part 1
- A Poem, Matthew 6:25 – guest post by Laura Camacho
- The Secret Grief of Miscarriage – guest post by Holly Malkin
- With Me In The Rain – artist guest post by Ramone Romero
- Healing Waters: Reflections on Postpartum Depression – guest post by Jennifer Lalas
- Worship In Tears: mourning chronic illness – guest post by Katie
- “That’s Not True” – a story about comfort, part 2
- Beatitudes, Revisited
- Mourn The Shame – a story about comfort, part 3
- These Are Ashes, This Is Mourning – a story about comfort, part 4
- Spirit of Life – a story about comfort, part 5 (conclusion)
- At Peace – artist guest post by Ramone Romero
- Experiencing God In Ugly Places: divorce, depression, bullying – guest post by Austin Way
- When Does Comfort Come? – mourning while parenting a child with invisible special needs – guest post by Laura Camacho
- “Where Do We Go From Here? God Have Mercy” – a special Marriage Startup Podcast – guest post by Leslie and Laura Camacho
- What “Comforted” Really Means
- Tearing Down The Fence – the grief and healing of RE-ENTRY – guest post by Hallie Ziebart
- Becoming Abundant
- Comfort Others
- Mourning The Missing Pieces – guest post by Heather Way
- Mourn With Those Who Mourn – artist guest post by Ramone Romero
- You Are Not Alone – final post of initial series
Some Posts Specific to Sexual Abuse:
- Childhood Sexual Abuse: The Basics and a Conversation
- Talking About Childhood Sexual Abuse, Part 1 (an experience with my daughter; a reference to a trauma trigger)
- Talking About Childhood Sexual Abuse, Part 2
- Letter To My Teenage Self
- The Lie That Fell Like a Curse (a story, part 1)
- “That’s Not True” (a story, part 2)
- Mourn The Shame (a story, part 3)
- These Are Ashes, This Is Mourning (a story, part 4)
- Spirit of Life (a story, part 5/conclusion)
You will find these posts to be honest about the ramifications of abuse, including the fact that memories and trauma triggers can crop up late in a person’s life, and late in a person’s walk of faith. The effects of abuse can fall in layers, and often healing will come in layers, too. I believe that giving voice can erase the power of shame and fear, opening the door to healing.
I always thought mine was not a “serious case” of abuse, yet here I am 30 years later, still experiencing my own layers of healing. As a result of my own walk with Jesus, I firmly believe in healing, but understand it to be gift available both in miraculous moments and in life-long journeys. These two experiences of healing twine together in our lives, and find their culmination in eternity.
Do not be afraid; you will not be put to shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood. (Isaiah 54:4)
Disclaimer: I am not a licensed therapist, counselor or minister. I am just a woman with a story and a hope. All opinions are my own.